As I am standing at the end of my fourth and final year at Auburn University, memories of my time spent here are playing like a slideshow in my head. While I take down the pictures that hang on the walls of my apartment and tape the boxes that will soon fill the back of a moving truck, my only wish is that I could have seen this moment in time four years ago. This moment in time, where I am reflecting on irreplaceable friendships and invaluable memories, would have shown my freshman self that at the end of it all, she would not ever want to leave.
If I had the chance to speak to that freshman version of me, there are so many things that I would tell her. Below, you will find a letter written to my freshman self that was scared to leave home from the person I am now that is scared to leave Auburn because it has become home.
I am writing this letter to you from four years in the future. I know that sounds weird, but I have some things that I need to tell you. First things first, as mom and dad say their goodbyes and drive away, you are not the only girl that is missing home and does not yet feel like she has a place. I will go into more detail later in this letter about her, but you will make a friend named Mallie, and she was feeling the exact same way you do during points of her freshman year. If you would like a little bit of advice, head on over to Keller Hall and meet her the day you move in. It will make your freshman year a lot easier than the one I had for us because Mallie does not roll around until the end of it.
Although this year is going to seem like it is mostly being spent making phone calls home to mom and to your friends from high school, I promise that it will not be all bad. You will have some great times, but it is just going to be a freshman year of ups and downs.
Moving on to an extremely serious matter, you cannot skip your classes like I did. I know you think that your GPA does not matter, but it is going to be a pain trying to get into the public relations major when you get a D in classes like Introduction to Theater. There is not much explaining you can do there.
On that note, go ahead and change your major to public relations from the beginning. You are going to stay in elementary education for far too long, and it is just not your calling. I figured that out the hard way.
I know I introduced Mallie earlier in the letter, but get ready to meet both her and Tiller because they are going to be the two highlights of your college years. Also, you are going to be roommates with them for your junior and senior years. I am sorry for spoiling the surprise, but it is so great that I could not keep it to myself. Mallie and Tiller are going to be the two girls that truly make Auburn home for you. They are the ones that will give you belly laughs until your belly aches and wipe your tears when you have had tough days. They will truly be two of the best friends that you will ever have and never thought you would find at Auburn.
It would take far too much space to list every person that I am lucky enough to call my friend now, but I can promise you that, by the end of your senior year, you will have an abundance of friendships with some of the greatest people you have ever known and too many memories to count. Your heart will feel so full as your last day of class at Auburn University approaches.
As far as regrets go, I can’t say that you are going to have any when you are standing where I am in four years. Sure, there are things that you may not be proud of that you did over the years, but it brought you to this moment that I am in as I type this letter to you. Your mistakes will make you into me, a woman that I am proud to have grown into.
Freshman year is tough for everyone, even if it doesn’t appear that way. Keep your head up because our life only gets better from where you are right now. Soon, you are going to feel homesick for Auburn. Cherish every moment you have here because it goes by too quickly.